Is really time consuming,
Especially if you go back for seconds...
Saturday, November 30, 2013
Hmmmm....
So I woke up to these texts from Jake's phone:
"Stay awy from my bf we are back together. By the way i spent the night over and we had sex"
"That night you guys met in red deer he screwed on me with you and his been lying about how ffar this is been going on with you two!!"
"So unblievable!"
So now here are my questions:
Why am I receiving text messages at 4 a.m. from his crazy ex-girlfriend from his phone?
I met him in Red Deer?
Was the sex good? Is that unblievable statement about the sex?
Anyways, my life has suddenly become a drama fest. Yuck. Time to ditch the drama and go back to the heart. Yoga time :)
"Stay awy from my bf we are back together. By the way i spent the night over and we had sex"
"That night you guys met in red deer he screwed on me with you and his been lying about how ffar this is been going on with you two!!"
"So unblievable!"
So now here are my questions:
Why am I receiving text messages at 4 a.m. from his crazy ex-girlfriend from his phone?
I met him in Red Deer?
Was the sex good? Is that unblievable statement about the sex?
Anyways, my life has suddenly become a drama fest. Yuck. Time to ditch the drama and go back to the heart. Yoga time :)
Friday, November 29, 2013
I got a job!
So I got my job. It's set now and they are offering me employment for when I graduate!
Also, here is a cute cat picture.
Blah. So this week has been sort of an emotional trainwreck. I've been really stressed out lately and getting like 70% on an assignment threw me off a cliff for some weird effed up reason and I felt really depressed all day. Jake brought me chai and some hugs and I felt better. Then he came over for a brief bit on Wednesday while I was studying for my exam and that was nice.
And then came Thursday. I wrote my exam which went BLAH, and then went to the Rack for a bulldog and Jake was supposed to meet me there. He showed up completely smashed already with a friend. Which was okay because I really like his friend but I don't like the fact that he was drunk already. I dislike the fact that he then went on to emotionally whine to me about how he felt insecure in our relationship because I apparently deserve so much better. Or that he tried to drink and drive last night. The entire night was just kind of an almost deal breaker for me. I realize that sometimes in past relationships I've let things slide that I shouldn't have. And this time, I don't want to do that. I know I'm great and I deserve someone equally as great.
But that was just one night, right? I mean, he has been so good to me every other night, bringing me chai, letting me cry on his shoulder for no reason, making me dinner, cooking me breakfast in bed, etc. But then tonight, I was upset because he had told me all day that he really wanted to see me after my choir rehearsal and that he would come over and stay the night. But then he said earlier this evening that he might get 'roped' into doing something else tonight. It doesn't make sense to me if you make plans with me how you can get 'roped' into doing something. If you have plans, you stick with them. What bothers me is that I told him that he could go have fun with his friends and I'd just chill at home and go to bed earlier or tumbl or whatever, but he would reply with all these sad responses like I was acting like I didn't want to see him. I just want to have my freedom and let him have freedom in his life too. That's the problem with relationships sometimes, you spend too much time with the other person and they become your life rather than living real lives. And then he texts me after I ask him what he's doing and says he is going out with his friends because his friend apparently from out of town showed up. Funny how he found out right when I texted him, eh? Ya, so I was mad that he would be all Wah Wah Wah you don't want to see me and then ditch me last minute. I don't mind being alone for a night as long as I'm not led to believing I'm going to see him.
Plus, a month ago I asked if he wanted to come to my choir concert. He asked how much it was, and I said, like 20 bucks, and he patted me on the shoulder and said, have fun with that. Obviously implying that he didn't want to pay money to watch my concert. And then tonight I was mad that he still wasn't showing any interest in coming even though it is tomorrow. He had the balls to tell me that he did want to come and told me a month ago, but I didn't seem like I wanted him to come. WHY WOULD I ASK IF I DIDN'T WANT HIM TO COME. And then tried to convince me that he wasn't trying to imply that he wouldn't pay money to see me sing. Blah. Boys are stupid.
That's my rant. I hope I'm just emotionally unstable right now and I'm overthinking things.
Also, here is a cute cat picture.
Blah. So this week has been sort of an emotional trainwreck. I've been really stressed out lately and getting like 70% on an assignment threw me off a cliff for some weird effed up reason and I felt really depressed all day. Jake brought me chai and some hugs and I felt better. Then he came over for a brief bit on Wednesday while I was studying for my exam and that was nice.
And then came Thursday. I wrote my exam which went BLAH, and then went to the Rack for a bulldog and Jake was supposed to meet me there. He showed up completely smashed already with a friend. Which was okay because I really like his friend but I don't like the fact that he was drunk already. I dislike the fact that he then went on to emotionally whine to me about how he felt insecure in our relationship because I apparently deserve so much better. Or that he tried to drink and drive last night. The entire night was just kind of an almost deal breaker for me. I realize that sometimes in past relationships I've let things slide that I shouldn't have. And this time, I don't want to do that. I know I'm great and I deserve someone equally as great.
But that was just one night, right? I mean, he has been so good to me every other night, bringing me chai, letting me cry on his shoulder for no reason, making me dinner, cooking me breakfast in bed, etc. But then tonight, I was upset because he had told me all day that he really wanted to see me after my choir rehearsal and that he would come over and stay the night. But then he said earlier this evening that he might get 'roped' into doing something else tonight. It doesn't make sense to me if you make plans with me how you can get 'roped' into doing something. If you have plans, you stick with them. What bothers me is that I told him that he could go have fun with his friends and I'd just chill at home and go to bed earlier or tumbl or whatever, but he would reply with all these sad responses like I was acting like I didn't want to see him. I just want to have my freedom and let him have freedom in his life too. That's the problem with relationships sometimes, you spend too much time with the other person and they become your life rather than living real lives. And then he texts me after I ask him what he's doing and says he is going out with his friends because his friend apparently from out of town showed up. Funny how he found out right when I texted him, eh? Ya, so I was mad that he would be all Wah Wah Wah you don't want to see me and then ditch me last minute. I don't mind being alone for a night as long as I'm not led to believing I'm going to see him.
Plus, a month ago I asked if he wanted to come to my choir concert. He asked how much it was, and I said, like 20 bucks, and he patted me on the shoulder and said, have fun with that. Obviously implying that he didn't want to pay money to watch my concert. And then tonight I was mad that he still wasn't showing any interest in coming even though it is tomorrow. He had the balls to tell me that he did want to come and told me a month ago, but I didn't seem like I wanted him to come. WHY WOULD I ASK IF I DIDN'T WANT HIM TO COME. And then tried to convince me that he wasn't trying to imply that he wouldn't pay money to see me sing. Blah. Boys are stupid.
That's my rant. I hope I'm just emotionally unstable right now and I'm overthinking things.
Sunday, November 24, 2013
Friday, November 22, 2013
Technology
Yesterday, in my final lecture of History of Technology, my professor basically went through what is happening to the world due to technology and the idea of technopoly.
Basically, we have entered a world where technology is no longer optional. It is mandatory. Kids in elementary school now need to learn to use computers even if they don't want to. It is pushed on them and they are required to learn it. Yet, they are never taught how these computers work, or even how any of the simpler technologies work. We, as a younger generation, are very ignorant of how technology works, yet we use it more than anyone has before.
In doing so, we have also forgotten the importance of the past. In order to understand where we are now, we must realize that there were reasons for developing these initial basic technologies and why people back then needed it. History has basically become something forgotten and schools focus more on sciences and math rather than any arts classes due to the fact that science and math leads to new technology while the arts do not. The arts have become suppressed so that science and math can move forwards. For example, the arts budgets have gotten cut, while the engineering ones did not really. How is it that I can get handouts for all my engineering classes, but we are not allowed to get handouts in my history class? Pretty sad, really.
Anyways, the professor also said how technology is always seen as a good thing, but consider this quote and think about how it may be possible that new technology is created as a solution to a problem that was created by a previous idea:
Just a thought I thought I'd share. That quote is from Freud :)
Basically, we have entered a world where technology is no longer optional. It is mandatory. Kids in elementary school now need to learn to use computers even if they don't want to. It is pushed on them and they are required to learn it. Yet, they are never taught how these computers work, or even how any of the simpler technologies work. We, as a younger generation, are very ignorant of how technology works, yet we use it more than anyone has before.
In doing so, we have also forgotten the importance of the past. In order to understand where we are now, we must realize that there were reasons for developing these initial basic technologies and why people back then needed it. History has basically become something forgotten and schools focus more on sciences and math rather than any arts classes due to the fact that science and math leads to new technology while the arts do not. The arts have become suppressed so that science and math can move forwards. For example, the arts budgets have gotten cut, while the engineering ones did not really. How is it that I can get handouts for all my engineering classes, but we are not allowed to get handouts in my history class? Pretty sad, really.
Anyways, the professor also said how technology is always seen as a good thing, but consider this quote and think about how it may be possible that new technology is created as a solution to a problem that was created by a previous idea:
If there had been no railway to conquer distances, my child would never have left his native town and I should need no telephone to hear his voice; if travelling across the ocean by ship had not been introduced, my friend would not have embarked on his sea-voyage and I should not need a cable to relieve my anxiety about him.
Just a thought I thought I'd share. That quote is from Freud :)
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
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