Carpe Diem.
I freaking sang at an open mic night.
I made a promise to myself to be more confident with myself, and that means taking risks.
:)
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Friday, March 9, 2012
"The Defibrillator Toaster
My mom would be so annoyed… every morning I would run into the kitchen screaming “WE’RE LOSING THEM!!! BEEP BEEP BEEPBEEPBEEP!”
“DON’T YOU DIE ON ME, DAMNIT!!! NURSE, WE NEED 12 CC’S OF CREAM CHEESE, STAT!!!”
He’s bread, Jim.
Time of deliciousness: 7:15 A.M
If we don’t restart his heart , he’s toast!
JESUS CRUST.
JAM IT!
“Daddy’s in a butter place now, kids.”
The Straight No Chaser concert just ended and I am on a mega high. The concert was absolutely fantastic. They sang all sorts of things, but everything was just full of energy. It felt like they were happy to be here and you could just tell they loved to be on stage.
They sang Fix You and I almost started bawling right there in the theatre. Amazing in every possible way. I'm so happy that I can take time to enjoy the beauty of the human voice, and that I'm not afraid to love what I love and hang out by myself in a concert full of couples and family.
Life contains so much beauty and I'm so luck to truly appreciate it.
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They sang Fix You and I almost started bawling right there in the theatre. Amazing in every possible way. I'm so happy that I can take time to enjoy the beauty of the human voice, and that I'm not afraid to love what I love and hang out by myself in a concert full of couples and family.
Life contains so much beauty and I'm so luck to truly appreciate it.
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Thursday, March 8, 2012
6 posts for 8 days? What's happening? I used to post like 3 times a day!
For some reason I keep thinking that it is March 14th today. I must hate this month and want it to be over as soon as possible.
This month has been a complete month of musical passion for me.
I've picked up my ukelele more times than I have since Christmas, I've written a song, I've been exploring new bands, and I stumbled upon a choral festival on Tuesday. I am going to the Straight No Chaser concert on Friday night, and I am planning to attend more of that choral festival.
These days, putting my headphones on and just surfing the web while browsing through new musicians is the only thing that puts a fat smile on my face. Other than coffee but that's not a normal happy whatsoever.
I've started Analysis lessons and my teacher is such a cute old lady. Like Mrs. Davis except older. Extremely ditzy...
My iron deficiency seems to be striking again. I donated blood on Saturday, and now I've been extremely exhausted to the point of falling asleep in the middle of the afternoon. I missed out on a few iron supplements due to working, but I'm back on a regular schedule to make up for it now.
Plans for this month:
Buy new shoes to train in for my marathon.
Buy a bike to do the bike tour.
Run 16k at least once this month.
Look into boxing trainers.
Focus on what makes me happy.
I get to see Lauren in Calgary in two weeks, so I'm really looking forward to it. Lauren and I just see eye to eye on almost everything, and I can tell her absolutely everything. I know she'll judge me, but in a friend way, and not a hate me for it way.
For some reason I keep thinking that it is March 14th today. I must hate this month and want it to be over as soon as possible.
This month has been a complete month of musical passion for me.
I've picked up my ukelele more times than I have since Christmas, I've written a song, I've been exploring new bands, and I stumbled upon a choral festival on Tuesday. I am going to the Straight No Chaser concert on Friday night, and I am planning to attend more of that choral festival.
These days, putting my headphones on and just surfing the web while browsing through new musicians is the only thing that puts a fat smile on my face. Other than coffee but that's not a normal happy whatsoever.
I've started Analysis lessons and my teacher is such a cute old lady. Like Mrs. Davis except older. Extremely ditzy...
My iron deficiency seems to be striking again. I donated blood on Saturday, and now I've been extremely exhausted to the point of falling asleep in the middle of the afternoon. I missed out on a few iron supplements due to working, but I'm back on a regular schedule to make up for it now.
Plans for this month:
Buy new shoes to train in for my marathon.
Buy a bike to do the bike tour.
Run 16k at least once this month.
Look into boxing trainers.
Focus on what makes me happy.
I get to see Lauren in Calgary in two weeks, so I'm really looking forward to it. Lauren and I just see eye to eye on almost everything, and I can tell her absolutely everything. I know she'll judge me, but in a friend way, and not a hate me for it way.
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Went to a Buddhist temple today to pray and eat a vegetarian meal.
It was a real spiritual awakening. As soon as I stepped into the prayer room, I could feel my heart light up and suddenly, all my worries, annoyances, sadness, disappeared. All I felt was love and warmth and happiness. It was strange, and I was intrigued.
I am extremely interested in Buddhism now, and have started reading about it. They have little lecture books that guide you through what Buddhism is, one lecture at a time, and I just read the first book.
I realized my interpretation of Karma is completely off the line. If I treat someone nicely, it isn't going to return in Karma as good grades, it's going to return as someone treating me nicely in return. I can't expect to get a good job because I try my best to reduce my environmental impact, I'll get a good job if I do everything I can to get that good job. Karma isn't about favours coming back because you did some sort of good deed back in the day, it's about contributing all that you can towards your goals or towards being a good person. And in return, you'll achieve your goals and you'll be treated well by others.
Be your best every day, and you will be treated as a good person.
It was a real spiritual awakening. As soon as I stepped into the prayer room, I could feel my heart light up and suddenly, all my worries, annoyances, sadness, disappeared. All I felt was love and warmth and happiness. It was strange, and I was intrigued.
I am extremely interested in Buddhism now, and have started reading about it. They have little lecture books that guide you through what Buddhism is, one lecture at a time, and I just read the first book.
I realized my interpretation of Karma is completely off the line. If I treat someone nicely, it isn't going to return in Karma as good grades, it's going to return as someone treating me nicely in return. I can't expect to get a good job because I try my best to reduce my environmental impact, I'll get a good job if I do everything I can to get that good job. Karma isn't about favours coming back because you did some sort of good deed back in the day, it's about contributing all that you can towards your goals or towards being a good person. And in return, you'll achieve your goals and you'll be treated well by others.
Be your best every day, and you will be treated as a good person.
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Donated blood today. No physical activity for me which means no run :S
I am sad today. Had a bad night last night of just feeling forever alone.
If someone hugged me, I honestly think I would full on burst into tears.
I want to run away.
This isn't the life I want. I want to be able to be selfish and not feel guilty about it.
All I ever do is worry about everyone else and it's a burden.
I feel everyone's sadness and loss of faith and anger and I am truly 100% affected by it.
I'm always the one to apologize first even if I haven't done anything wrong, because I'd rather let the other person feel right so they don't have to stress about it. I hate fighting.
I hate being so selfless. It's silly to say that about myself, but I really think I care too much for others.
I helped Shane through his depression. I tried to help Zach through his, but I haven't ever put that much effort into taking care of myself. I don't want to go to dinner tonight with Tonya and Shane, but I know Tonya would be happy if I went, so I will.
I told Shane I'd go to a movie with him after dinner even though I don't want to, but he seemed excited about it and I don't want to let him down.
I want to curl in bed and just escape for a million years.
I am sad today. Had a bad night last night of just feeling forever alone.
If someone hugged me, I honestly think I would full on burst into tears.
I want to run away.
This isn't the life I want. I want to be able to be selfish and not feel guilty about it.
All I ever do is worry about everyone else and it's a burden.
I feel everyone's sadness and loss of faith and anger and I am truly 100% affected by it.
I'm always the one to apologize first even if I haven't done anything wrong, because I'd rather let the other person feel right so they don't have to stress about it. I hate fighting.
I hate being so selfless. It's silly to say that about myself, but I really think I care too much for others.
I helped Shane through his depression. I tried to help Zach through his, but I haven't ever put that much effort into taking care of myself. I don't want to go to dinner tonight with Tonya and Shane, but I know Tonya would be happy if I went, so I will.
I told Shane I'd go to a movie with him after dinner even though I don't want to, but he seemed excited about it and I don't want to let him down.
I want to curl in bed and just escape for a million years.
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