The discontentment with my body that I am currently experiencing is super uncomfortable.
I have gained about 10 pounds in the last two or three months and I feel it on my body.
With the amount of working I've been doing, I've lost track of working out, and eating healthy.
I eat bags of chips and cookies for dinner. That is definitely not normal.
Blah. I went for a 7k bike ride today and felt awful after it. Partially because I think I'm kind of sick, but still, I shouldn't feel that gross after such a short bike ride.
I need to stop these bad habits and stop making excuses and start taking responsibility for my body.
ARGHHHHHHHHHH.
Monday, July 30, 2012
And I took another day off.
I just didn't feel like driving to work today! I worked from home for about a half day.
I went to lunch with Mardy and then we biked around downtown, had a coffee, and said our final goodbye for a year. I won't see her again before I leave for Aus. How sad!
Apparently Karen from work saw me out when I was supposedly sick, so she was bugging me about it. Karen makes my life difficult. She somehow has managed to invade my personal bubble and is incredibly moody and ruins my day sometimes just because she is a grumpy bear! I like her and all, but it's like Rachelle, just a bit overwhelming at times. Sigh.
Now that Australia is getting closer, I'm getting nervous! What if I can't figure out health care while I'm there! And what if I don't love it as much as I think I will. What if it's harder to find a job than I thought it would be? Just so many worries! The reality of it is finally setting in. In a month and a half, I'm going to be halfway across the world with no support system. Omg. It's scary.
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I just didn't feel like driving to work today! I worked from home for about a half day.
I went to lunch with Mardy and then we biked around downtown, had a coffee, and said our final goodbye for a year. I won't see her again before I leave for Aus. How sad!
Apparently Karen from work saw me out when I was supposedly sick, so she was bugging me about it. Karen makes my life difficult. She somehow has managed to invade my personal bubble and is incredibly moody and ruins my day sometimes just because she is a grumpy bear! I like her and all, but it's like Rachelle, just a bit overwhelming at times. Sigh.
Now that Australia is getting closer, I'm getting nervous! What if I can't figure out health care while I'm there! And what if I don't love it as much as I think I will. What if it's harder to find a job than I thought it would be? Just so many worries! The reality of it is finally setting in. In a month and a half, I'm going to be halfway across the world with no support system. Omg. It's scary.
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Friday, July 27, 2012
I need a vacation.
Work is stressing me out hardcore.
I have random boxes of things in my cubicle that were never dealt with that I think are water glasses and other things that the general office forgot to unpack.
And then I have like 5 bazillion things of actual work to do.
Oh well. One more month left and I'll be done!!!
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Work is stressing me out hardcore.
I have random boxes of things in my cubicle that were never dealt with that I think are water glasses and other things that the general office forgot to unpack.
And then I have like 5 bazillion things of actual work to do.
Oh well. One more month left and I'll be done!!!
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Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Monday, July 23, 2012
People get so incredibly boxed in by their own thoughts about how they should live, how they should act, what they should do with their lives.
Key word 'should'.
We shouldn't do anything. But we CAN do whatever we want. We WANT to do something.
Sure, when we're young and we don't know any better, we should probably listen to what our parents what us to do.
Now I'm 21. And I was texting Jeff (who I don't think really counts as a friend anymore but apparently he is clinging on to our friendship...) and told him I was taking music history so that I could get my piano performers certificate.
His question was if I was doing it for my parents.
OH my dearie me. I'M 21! I don't do things for my parents anymore. I will go pick up laundry for my parents, or go grab some eggs, or go visit my cousin. I don't make a decision to take a music history course in order to please my parents.
Goodness. It's that awful ideal of doing what your parents want you to do that shelters people so much from the world. Or when I said, no it's not because of my parents, he asked what the point was then.
DUDE. What is the point of you texting me right now? Does it have a final purpose that will lead to a career in texting, or a lifelong friendship, or some meaningful thing that will count all the way until you're 80 and wrinkly? No. So I can take this darned music history course because I want to. I want to accomplish something. I want my performers certificate.
People get overwhelmed by the thought of doing only things that will get them something in return.
Take Rachelle for example, some days she will tell me about good deeds that she did during the week and finish it off by saying that she will now have good karma. Her idea of karma is doing good things in order to have good things happen in return.
But why can't we do something good just to do something good. Selflessness leads to a more rewarding life, and educating yourself in things that you are interested in leads to a more intellectual view of the world. We all see the world in different ways, but the more I talk to people, the more frustrated I get with them.
Just be you. Do what you want to do, and leave the rest up to the workings of the world.
Key word 'should'.
We shouldn't do anything. But we CAN do whatever we want. We WANT to do something.
Sure, when we're young and we don't know any better, we should probably listen to what our parents what us to do.
Now I'm 21. And I was texting Jeff (who I don't think really counts as a friend anymore but apparently he is clinging on to our friendship...) and told him I was taking music history so that I could get my piano performers certificate.
His question was if I was doing it for my parents.
OH my dearie me. I'M 21! I don't do things for my parents anymore. I will go pick up laundry for my parents, or go grab some eggs, or go visit my cousin. I don't make a decision to take a music history course in order to please my parents.
Goodness. It's that awful ideal of doing what your parents want you to do that shelters people so much from the world. Or when I said, no it's not because of my parents, he asked what the point was then.
DUDE. What is the point of you texting me right now? Does it have a final purpose that will lead to a career in texting, or a lifelong friendship, or some meaningful thing that will count all the way until you're 80 and wrinkly? No. So I can take this darned music history course because I want to. I want to accomplish something. I want my performers certificate.
People get overwhelmed by the thought of doing only things that will get them something in return.
Take Rachelle for example, some days she will tell me about good deeds that she did during the week and finish it off by saying that she will now have good karma. Her idea of karma is doing good things in order to have good things happen in return.
But why can't we do something good just to do something good. Selflessness leads to a more rewarding life, and educating yourself in things that you are interested in leads to a more intellectual view of the world. We all see the world in different ways, but the more I talk to people, the more frustrated I get with them.
Just be you. Do what you want to do, and leave the rest up to the workings of the world.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
So I have been constantly super busy with work these days.
It's been insane.
60 hour work weeks, 10 hour days in the office.
Just ridiculously crazy busy.
What's new with my life? Well let's see...
I bought a longboard. I have been riding it around a bit. It's pretty fun!
I am just about ready to buy my plane ticket to Australia.
I lost my wallet in a drunken escapade last weekend. Met randoms including a farmboy from Sundre who enjoys riding in the rodeo (SO COOL!). Went to Stampede with Rachelle and Lauren and then had another drunken night of fun where we met randoms on a stag party where we convinced them that Lauren could potentially be a man (even though her boobs are enormous!). We ate at Tubby Dog, which I think is totally overrated. I thought my dog was good, but not THAT good. A place called Beer Revolution in Calgary is super cool though. They have new beers whenever their shipment of kegs run out and they have a screen telling you how much is remaining and how many days of it they have left, which is a pretty awesome concept.
Had a mass breakdown while working out in the field this week. Apparently I didn't seal off one of the holes correctly, got scolded by Ian, and then proceeded to cry for like 3 hours. OMG. It was horrible and my driller didn't even know how to deal with it. Oh! And my driller who I totally thought was like 40 was only 28... How does that happen? People sometimes look so young and sometimes look so old. It probably has to do with the smoking?
I began studying for my history exam that is now in t-minus less than 3 weeks :S It has renewed my interest in classical music. I'm currently listening to Mendelssohn's Violin Concerto in e- Op. 64 and I forgot how amazing some of this stuff is. It's so beautiful and captures the intricacy of certain instruments so well.
I have gotten so much closer to Rachelle in the last little while. She is moving to South Korea in less than a month for a year to teach English. So jealous. So we've been hanging out a lot to make up for all the time we won't get to see each other next year but we plan on weekly 'Wype' dates (Skype+Wine) so that we'll still be friends.
I have distanced myself from Shane a lot. He is too much of a burden to me. I mean, I get that he isn't overly outgoing or anything, but he clings too much. On a date with Kyle once upon a time, Kyle said to me, 'You know he's totally in love with you, right?' OMG. If it is that obvious to someone who has only seen us together twice, then it's obviously out of hand. How is Shane supposed to move on with his life if he keeps clinging to these stupid crushes to the point of insanity. I talked to Rachelle about it, and she told me it was super obvious too. I didn't notice, because I thought that was just how Shane was, but now I realize that everything I take an interest in, he decides he loves too. It's just too much, so I just stopped talking to him for a while, and we are going for lunch today. I think it might be awkward, but we're supposed to be going to Australia together soo... I should probably figure this situation out.
It's been insane.
60 hour work weeks, 10 hour days in the office.
Just ridiculously crazy busy.
What's new with my life? Well let's see...
I bought a longboard. I have been riding it around a bit. It's pretty fun!
I am just about ready to buy my plane ticket to Australia.
I lost my wallet in a drunken escapade last weekend. Met randoms including a farmboy from Sundre who enjoys riding in the rodeo (SO COOL!). Went to Stampede with Rachelle and Lauren and then had another drunken night of fun where we met randoms on a stag party where we convinced them that Lauren could potentially be a man (even though her boobs are enormous!). We ate at Tubby Dog, which I think is totally overrated. I thought my dog was good, but not THAT good. A place called Beer Revolution in Calgary is super cool though. They have new beers whenever their shipment of kegs run out and they have a screen telling you how much is remaining and how many days of it they have left, which is a pretty awesome concept.
Had a mass breakdown while working out in the field this week. Apparently I didn't seal off one of the holes correctly, got scolded by Ian, and then proceeded to cry for like 3 hours. OMG. It was horrible and my driller didn't even know how to deal with it. Oh! And my driller who I totally thought was like 40 was only 28... How does that happen? People sometimes look so young and sometimes look so old. It probably has to do with the smoking?
I began studying for my history exam that is now in t-minus less than 3 weeks :S It has renewed my interest in classical music. I'm currently listening to Mendelssohn's Violin Concerto in e- Op. 64 and I forgot how amazing some of this stuff is. It's so beautiful and captures the intricacy of certain instruments so well.
I have gotten so much closer to Rachelle in the last little while. She is moving to South Korea in less than a month for a year to teach English. So jealous. So we've been hanging out a lot to make up for all the time we won't get to see each other next year but we plan on weekly 'Wype' dates (Skype+Wine) so that we'll still be friends.
I have distanced myself from Shane a lot. He is too much of a burden to me. I mean, I get that he isn't overly outgoing or anything, but he clings too much. On a date with Kyle once upon a time, Kyle said to me, 'You know he's totally in love with you, right?' OMG. If it is that obvious to someone who has only seen us together twice, then it's obviously out of hand. How is Shane supposed to move on with his life if he keeps clinging to these stupid crushes to the point of insanity. I talked to Rachelle about it, and she told me it was super obvious too. I didn't notice, because I thought that was just how Shane was, but now I realize that everything I take an interest in, he decides he loves too. It's just too much, so I just stopped talking to him for a while, and we are going for lunch today. I think it might be awkward, but we're supposed to be going to Australia together soo... I should probably figure this situation out.
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