Story of my life

One Direction usually has songs that don't mean much and videos that don't mean much, but if you watch this video and listen to the song, it has a pretty good story with real meaning. This song makes me cry, especially with Liam (I think) and his grandparents. It makes me think about my parents and my auntie and how they are aging at what seems like a much quicker rate than when I was little. And I wish we could just freeze at this age and live for a long time. I don't want them to go through anything to do with old age, like mental problems or health problems or things like that.
After a wonderful weekend in Banff, I was home for a day and then came back to Edmonton and everytime, it seems, that I go home and come back here, I want to just cry for days. I notice the changes in them or I just miss them even though I know they will be there the next time I have time to visit. I just wish I could spend more time with them without actually living with them, you know? It is a weird feeling but I just don't want things to change. I love my family and I love life right now and I just wish it could stay the same forever.

This weekend was great. I got to spend time with Jake and he met Danielle and Aaron and Shawn and we baked cookies and ate cookies and it was relaxing, but I'm suffering from SAD at the moment I think. Also, I think I have anxiety for some reason. I can't sleep through the nights anymore. I woke up with a tight squeezing in my chest and felt really worried and couldn't breathe in the middle of the night last night. I don't know what is going on... It is extremely strange.