Beerfest was lame!
They barely had any weird international beers, they had bars there serving jagerbombs and stupid shot drinks, and they were crazy expensive!
Never again.
But the day/night was fun. Ended up at blue plate diner with Rachelle and had an amazing lentil and nut loaf with potatoes and grilled veggies. And ended off the night with yummy drinks from public house.
As the night progressed, we definitely encountered many many douchebags.
Oh Edmonton, I love you but why do I also hate you?
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Oh Amanda, this one's for you.

Deb 'Spoons' Perry Does The Black Keys

Old guy on bus definitely pooped his pants. How disgusting but I still feel sorry for him!
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The smell of incense reminds me of 2nd year.
Living in my basement suite, skipping school, trying to pretend I was happy when I was so utterly disappointed in myself.
I hit a ridiculous low point between first year and throughout second year.
Things weren't good.
And now I smell the incense and it makes me feel sad yet happy.
I don't know what it is about the smell of it that makes my heart feel warm.
I guess it sort of reminds me never to go back to where I was.
To stop taking people's bullshit.
To start just being happy with myself.

I guess it's a nice reminder that I only have one life to live, and that one person shouldn't be the entire focus of my life.

Josh told me I had a 'free pass' on Monday when I was out with my drillers.
It made me extremely angry. The fact that he still doesn't trust me makes me think that maybe there's a reason why he doesn't. Is it because I shouldn't trust him? Or that if he gives me a free pass, then I have a chance to get even for something I don't know he did? No idea. Mostly I just feel like life is too short for bullshit. If you are in a relationship with someone, why would you give them a 'pass'? Doesn't that defeat the purpose of being with only that one person.
Just absolutely stupid. I don't really know how I feel about that. But life always seems to work itself out. One of the perks of this world.

Last night was such a gong show! I love my drillers.
We finished work early so we went to the Rock for 2.75 pints and pizza!
Then we proceeded to get absolutely wasted, Tabitha also joined us and they ordered her enough drinks to catch up with our plastered-ness.
After being there for about 4 hours, Tabitha wanted popcorn so we slowly made our way to the mall so we could get kernels. We went through the Bay and apparently Luke had a bit of a crush on Tabi because he bought her a 100 dollar bottle of perfume even though he has a wife and kids... A little skeezy, but I mean, she got free perfume!
Then we got delicious white ched popcorn and threw it at each other while we played some ridiculous points game that Luke made up that rated our awesomeness basically based on how much we dissed him.
Finally, we made it to the bank to grab cash, and then the strippers where we proceeded to get even more shitter'd than before. Threw money at naked women, won posters and lighters, and walked home.
Absolutely hilarious.
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Today I love myself because I love to open doors for other people.
Because I have a nasty sunglass tan.
And because I biked for 30 minutes even though I was already exhausted.
Why do you love yourself?

YUM BLUE PLATE DINER :)
Ate a portobello, leek, and goat cheese phyllo strudel with pureed cauliflower and roast potatoes.
SOOOO GOOD.
Then lemon blueberry cheesecake and mint cucumber sorbet.
:)
YUM YUM YUM.

Spring snow falls are so beautiful.
The sun shines and the snow melts as it hits your face.
You can stand outside and look up at the sky and not freeze your bum off.
And it only lasts a few days, reminding you of how beauty is in the simplest things and that you should appreciate them while they last.

Everyone says "Oh stupid snow, go away."
But we should realize that people who don't get snow are astonished by its beauty.
It's so simple, that moment when you stick out your tongue and smile because you can feel the frozen little flakes land on your tongue.
The moment when your crush throws a snowball at you.
When you look outside your window, and there's a snowman smiling and waving at you.
The giggles of children making snow angels.
How the streetlights seem to make a glowing purple color with the snow and sky.
And the crunching sound that your tires make as you drive off.

I feel like bad things happen to people who get close to me.
I'm sure I've said this so many times, but people's close relatives die, or split up, or people try to kill themselves.
It's not my fault. I realize that, but I feel like I'm bad luck.
And then yesterday I was thinking about this, and remembered how one day I had said that if I could just be the one holding all the burden so that everyone else around me could be happy, I would gladly take that responsibility.
So maybe it's not that I'm bad luck.
Perhaps it's because although I was fragile and still am at some times, I'm still strong enough to handle all the pain.
That's why it comes to me. Because no matter how much I have to take for someone else, I'll still keep standing.
As many times as I've fallen, I've always been able to get back up. And maybe I'm just that person. The one who offers a helping hand for those on the ground. The one who picks up all the broken pieces and glues them back together.

*Watching Victoria's secret commercial*
Ew those girls are gross. They're too skinny.

Me: WHAT?! (inside my head of course)

I'm confused.

I wanna be the one that makes everything right.
That people look at and think, "She's amazing."
To be the one who makes everyone smile.
And laugh.