1. Hair Color? Black
2. Favorite Singer? Alex Goot
3. Celebrity Crush? Leighton Meester
4. Favorite Movie? Mean Girls
5. Birthday Month? September
6. How many pets? 0
7. Hobbies? Blogging, shopping, working out.
8. Favorite Color? Pink
9. Favorite Tumblr? whattajerk
10. Turn ons? Cowboys, cooks, confidence, easy-going, cares about the environment, and open-minded.
11. Turn offs? Homophobic, rude, introvert, hiking boots and long socks, sandals with socks, and bad fashion sense.
12. I hate it when people... use the word gay in a negative way.
13. Favorite TV show? Skins UK
14. TV show I do not like? ...
15. Movie I hate? ...
16. Something I'm good at? Shopping.
17. Something I'm bad at? Resisting ice cream.
18. Description of my crush? ...
19. Description of my best friend? BB is a nice sleek black color with silver detailing. A blinking red light and cold to touch.
20. Item I never leave without? BB
21. Relationship Status? Single
22. Favorite Food? Hawkins cheesies
23. Favorite Book? ...
24. Favorite Season? Summer
25. Most embarrassing moment? ...

Found on whyte ave. I love this place.
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Kiss me.
Only if you tell me what you love about me.
I love you because of your smile, because of the way you laugh, because of the way you seem to bring the good out of everyone, because you're you.
I can't kiss you.
Why not?
Because you're a liar.

Good day today.
Woke up after only 4 hours of sleep and watched 90210. It made me cry!
Went for a run, then watched Degrassi with Amanda for a while.
Walked to volunteering and then went straight to Edmonton after.
Wandered the Heritage Festival and ate some churro things that were delicious.
Went to Captain America and feasted on pretzel MandM's and popcorn.
SOOOOO GOOD.
Now in my old school bed, relaxing and listening to Alex Goot.
Also daydreaming about boys.
Maybe still infatuated with my date last night. I feel like I'm obsessed. Not good.

Daydreaming at work.
Imagining how amazing it would feel to be with a guy who would just pick me up and place me on a wood fence out in the country and kiss me.
The sun would be shining, the grass long and white with the reflection of sunlight.
He would be a cowboy and I would be wearing a white dress and feather earrings.
We would laugh and my heart would feel warm.

The Tallest Man On Earth - I Won't Be Found (Live on KEXP)

It's funny. I'm so into doing my work and other things today but inside my head I am missing. My thoughts are thoughts but they don't have meaning. They swirl around my head with no feeling. I'm alive but I'm dead inside.
No motivation lies within. The thought of seeing people makes me want to shrivel up in a corner. The sun doesn't feel warm. Smiles seem fake. The world is moving around me and I'm stuck. Standing here and not feeling.
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This is exactly what I would like to be doing right now.









































There is just something amazingly attractive about thigh high socks.

WANT WANT WANT WANT WANT

HOLY CRAP HOLY CRAP HOLY CRAP

I am so goinf to pulling off an outfit like this for the Avenged Sevenfold concert that I am attending at the end of September.
Big combat boots, and lots of metal and black. HECK YES

I think I lost my wallet. OH NO OH NO OH NO!

My day in facebook statuses:

Sarah is sleepy and wants to go back to bed.
Sarah is going to work.
Sarah is at work twiddling her thumbs.
Sarah is having lunch with Lauren at Mongolie Grill.
Sarah is late getting back from lunch.
Sarah is amazed at the fact she just spent 4 hours talking to Angela.
Sarah is upset that Evan thinks she takes advantage of guys because of her good looks.
Sarah got a good workout at yoga.
Sarah just stuffed her face with delicious junk food.
Sarah is watching the Bachelorette.
Sarah is going to bed. YAWN.

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday. I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time. I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room. I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me. I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear. We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men. I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me. I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male. I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men. I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that. I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me. I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don’t believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind. I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love. I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends I’m a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them. I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to “teach me a lesson”—- if you believe that homophobia is wrong, feel free to reblog this.

Run to kin kanyon and back.
Absolutely the best feeling in the world.
My legs feel strong, my breath has improved so much since I ran last summer.
When I look in the mirror, I feel pride:
Pride for my muscular legs.
Pride for my shoulders.
Pride for my strengthening arms.
Pride for my stomach.
Proud of my stretch marks. They prove the battle I've been through with my body.
Proud of the fact that I can look in the mirror and feel happy.
Pride that I can smile when I look in the mirror and it isn't fake anymore.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

What I don't understand is the unwillingness of people to just accept themselves, and others, as they are.
Why can't we open our minds to knowing that people have different beliefs, and just accept it.
To not be confrontational when people's values lie far from our own?
Acceptance is the key to peace, and it is in our own hearts to do it.

The mentality stopping acceptance from happening is the same that halts action against global warming.
The idea of 'I'm just one person. If I start, and no one else is doing it, then why bother?'
The reason is that it falls within your value system.
It makes you less selfish, a better person, and it opens your heart to all those around you.

From now on, I'm going to try my best to just accept other people as they are. To be less confrontational, and just accept things as they come. I'm going to continue my life as I see fit, and no one can stop me.

If you act as though it were impossible to fail, it will be.

STUPID BOYS AT WORK (minus Evan because I actually like him right now)
YOU ARE LAME.
SUPER LAME.
GO DIE IN A HOLE.
NO ONE WILL MISS YOU.
YOU ARE LAME LAME LAME.
GO AWAY.
P.S. EFF OFF.

DEAN BRODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"I don't like you as more than a friend"
"Why?"
"You're clingy and sensitive"
"I'm neither of those things"

3 days later:
" OMG I just saw an albino deer, it was just a baby. Made my life better."

When you say your life was made better by seeing an albino deer, you are a sensitive person. No denying it.

Hot Yoga session #6:
Flow Hot Yoga.
Super hot in the room.
Amanda fell asleep snoring before class began. I poked her and it made me giggle.
It was a tough class, holding poses that took a lot of balance and made my muscles tingle!
YAY FOR YOGA!
Class tomorrow at 5 30, soccer on Tuesday followed by maybe yoga at 7 30, Wednesday at 4, Thursday at 5 30, and perhaps Friday at 7! I love my hot yoga!

I can't believe how motivated I am to work out.
I want abs. SOOOOO badly.

YUM. Where do you live and may I have you?

Here's my haul for the day! Felt like going to buy some work out clothes and got new running shoes, an Under Armour heatgear tank top, and 2 reversible sports bras.
I feel like this whole workout thing is getting to me.
I look in the mirror and am super happy with what I see lately. Good thing right?

Last night was super fun!
I went for a few drinks at Cities Gastro Pub where there was some live music. The guy playing is just named Alex and he was old with long super curly hair. His voice was nice and he played his guitar by plucking it as it lay across in front of him. He dedicated a song to Bretton and me and that was really cute. I talked to him briefly when I was leaving and he is actually from Calgary, so when I'm in Calgary next I might try to catch him. He was good!
Then I watched Easy A with Bretton at my home, and then Layla came to pick us up and we left for Billy Bobs. We danced to some country tunes, drank our night away, and I somehow managed to get some weird temporary tattoo on my arm.









My goal of the night was to dance with a guy with a cowboy hat, and I totally ended up doing that. It was like a genuine cowboy hat and he had a beard and a country boy accent! My name was Daisy for the night. HAHA. So much fun. I also learned how to 2 step. Hurray for me!

Went for a run this morning.
Then walked to the mall for pancakes with my dada.
Then biked to the gym to work out.
Tanned and then volunteered for 4 hours.
Ate dinner, fell asleep, time to get ready to go for drinks.
Sounds like a pretty darned good Saturday!
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Tanning, reading the Town, iPod on, eating mango and yogurt.
Perfect summer day!
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Sigggghhhhhh.
Today the outfit is worse.
The usual shorts, hiking boots, long socks....
This time there is a tropical button up involved. WITH PARROTS.



















Now imagine that with hiking boots and long socks. Absolutely horrendous. Plus the shirt is this weird blue-turqoisey color :( I am embarrassed that someone who dresses like that works for the government. Go back to BC!

You know it's going to be a good day when the chicken dance song is running non-stop through your head and you repeatedly want to start dancing it.

Have a good Friday everyone!!
I'm sending love to you all!

A smile can make a world of difference

Sorry about the crappy sound quality. I should have talked louder!

HOLY CRAP.
OMFG.
Steve didn't know that there was a difference between your and you're.
WTF WTF WTF.
And then he went on to say he was really good at grammar. UH... THAT'S A BIG FAT LIE IF YOU DON'T KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOUR AND YOU'RE.

And don't buy chips from the vending machine if you are concerned about being fat.
Plus you should try to chew with your mouth closed.
And stop munching like an effing cow.
CLOSE YOUR MOUTH AND CHEW QUIETLY.

An example of how inconsistent people can be:

Me: Olivia Wilde or Megan Fox?
Bret: Oivia Wilde. Megan Fox has had way too much plastic surgery.
Me: Everyone gets plastic surgery these days.
Bret: Hers looks bad though.
Me: I think she looks gorgeous.
Bret: She did in like transformers but the second one she was looking worse.
Me: I think she looks wonderful.
Bret: She does for sure.

HAHA. What a dumb idiot. You can't just agree with someone just to agree with someone. Stand up for what you think and stop being a freaking doormat.

I'm taking a break from my cell phone. Texting has become an obsession for me.
Sundays I will be away from my phone all day. Unless you are super important.
Also minimal use on Friday night and Saturday.
I need to distance myself from being dependent on people and technology and focus on me.
ME ME ME.

OMG OMG OMG OMG

I ran home from Moxie's in the rain.
It's something so exhilarating to be in a downpour.
Drenched in rain and full of adrenaline.
There's something so animal that takes over that makes you want to run until your heart can't handle it.
Yet something so peaceful and serene and beautiful about it.
The simplicity of it all is just so wonderful.
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6 and a half weeks without coffee and minimal caffeine (Earl Grey and Green Tea but for the last month they have both been decaf if I drink them).
I feel amazing. No giant energy drops, and no extreme highs.
Just balanced. Life is about balance.

Chew more and savour the food.
I always shovel food in my mouth, barely tasting the flavours.
Enjoy food and enjoy meal times.
It's so crazy how much we use meal times as social events now.
Easiest thing to do with a friend? Go out for lunch or dinner.
And then the time is spent inhaling food rather than enjoying the meal and the person you are supposed to be spending time with.
People love convenience and hate the idea of effort.
'My doctor said I need to lose 50 pounds to be healthy. Pfffft!' or 'She just ordered a salad? That's crazy.' but later on, there's always complaints about how they feel bad about what they ate or how they feel fat or unattractive.
It all lies within. If you treasure your body, it will listen to you.
Be comfortable with your food choices. Who cares if everyone else is ordering deep friend deliciousness, you can order the salad if you feel like eating a salad!
I find it strange how judgemental people are about what you order when you eat out.
For example, I ordered a salad with dressing on the side when I went out for lunch with my colleagues last week, and when I got back, people were discussing how I ordered only a salad for lunch. I wasn't super hungry and felt like getting a salad, so what? It's not my fault I like to eat healthy and make you feel bad for eating a gigantic meal when you are overweight. That's up to you to change that, and not me to change so you can feel better about yourself.
Welcome to life, it is what you make of it.

Writing is so therapeutic.
I can let go of so many feelings and tension with just one blog.
Thanks for being part of my world!

Wow. I never thought the day would come where I would be confident enough to say 'I don't need to lose weight.' But it happened, and naturally too. It just slipped out of my mouth and then I was so surprised by myself.
I was telling Steve about my workouts at yoga and whatnot, and then he asked me if I was trying to lose weight. I just want to tone!!! Abs and arms and a defined back and strong legs. What more could I possibly ask for. :)
Feeling good for the last couple days and hope it continues.

P.S. So over the crappy boooo feeling from earlier. Open mind, Open heart.

This is gold.

An Agonostic Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with God. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand.
Professor: You are a Christian, aren’t you, son?

Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you believe in God?

Student: Absolutely, sir.

Professor: Is God good?

Student: Sure.

Professor: My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is God good, then? Hmm?

(Student was silent)

Professor: You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?

Student: Yes.

Professor: Is Satan good?

Student: No.

Professor: Where does Satan come from?

Student: From.. God.

Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student: Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?

Student: Yes.

Professor: So who created evil?

(Student didn’t answer)

Professor: Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?

Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who created them?

(Student had no answer)

Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever seen God?

Student: No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God.

Student: No, sir.

Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God, for that matter?

Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.

Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student: Yes.

Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student: Nothing. I only have my Faith.

Professor: Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student: And is there such a thing as Cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student: No, sir, there isn’t.

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)

Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There was a pon-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)

Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?

Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light… But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it’s called Darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student: Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student: Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do.

Student: Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)

Student: Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?

(The class was in uproar)

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?

(The class broke out into laughter)

Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures?

(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)

Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.

Student: That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving!

Definitely need isolation right now.
Worked out this morning at around 7 and then came to work.
My mind feels so clear and light and it seems like everyone's words are striking me more than usual.
Like things I would normally laugh and joke about seem like absolute idiocy to me.
For example, I just told Bret that I went to see Horrible Bosses last night (good but only for laughs and not for any meaning. Sort of like a take your mind of things movie) and the first thing he asks was 'Is it true that Jennifer Aniston shows her boobs?'
And normally I think I would laugh at that, but today it just seems stupid.
Why is it that guys just wants to see boobs? You can look at them online. Or in magazines.
Ugh. Avoiding people starting now.

Today is not a people day for me.
I CANNOT stand lazy people. It irritates me to an extreme.
Once upon a time, I showed Steve where I park when I drive, and he was like 'OMFG. That's so far away!' And kept going on and on about how I should park at Superstore so that it would be closer. BLAH BLAH BLAH. And it is honestly 5 blocks away, taking about 5 minutes if not less to walk...
So apparently the parking at Superstore is no longer free, so him and Wendi are complaining like it is the end of the world. OH NO!!! Now we actually have to walk and not be fucking lazy assholes. Pardon the French. But I don't understand it at all. How hard can it be to leave a little bit earlier everyday and enjoy walking for a change. That's what we were meant to do is to be on our feet. The legs and feet aren't just meant to press pedals. So then Steve procedes to say 'I actually enjoy the walk in the morning. BLAH BLAH BLAH'. LIKE ARE YOU FOR FUCKING SERIOUS? And you were ragging on me earlier this month about parking so far away. STUPID PIECE OF SHIT PERSON. Either be you and only you, or do be anything at all. I am so annoyed by people that are fake and inconsistent.
So now I am hoping that there will be no chance of me actually having to talk to him or I am going to be a ginormous bitch. It might be getting close to that time of the month, so if I have to suffer through a conversation with him, I might actually rip his head off. Actually, nevermind that, I don't even want to touch that.

I hate cubicle neighbor.
Everytime I hear his voice I want to retch.
EW EW EW EW EW.
You are absolutely disgusting.
You are ridiculously arrogant for a guy that has almost nothing going for him.
One day he asked me if he looked fat... I didn't even know what to say.
SO EFFING GROSS.
SHUT THE EFF UP.
I HATE HEARING YOU TALK BESIDE ME.
YOU SAY NOTHING WITH MEANING. YOU ARE A DOUCHEBAG.
GO AWAY.

Check this out. I didn't know the government promoted health to such an extreme.

I want sunshine.
The twitter of birds as they fly from tree to tree.
The gentle breeze causing the leaves to rustle.
And the warmth of the sun. Almost unbearable.

Isn't it amazing how music can you make you feel?
I remember I used to listen to Counting Crows almost every morning in the basement as I was getting ready for school in fall of my grade 9 year.
I remember I hung out with this boy, and then decided he was gross. Everytime I would hear Counting Crows, it would remind me of this boy and make me feel absolutely repulsed.
Now, I listen to it and remember how simple my life was back then.
The carefree nature of everything I did. How young and happy I was back then.
Before all the responsibility and stress and sadness.
I miss those Counting Crows days.
I want to feel like that again.

Watching Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition.
Food... What a messed up thing.
To imagine it was once scarce and eaten only when required is insane when these days you can get fast food cheaper than whole foods like fruit or bread...
It's a scary thing.
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Motivation and Inspiration

I want to tone my body.
Make it look strong and lean!
Hot yoga is amazing. Relaxing yet intense and it feels so relieving when the class is done.
5 minutes in and I'm coated head to toe in sweat. That's a good work out!

Montreal!!!!!! Here I come baby!
See you in September ;)
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I desire a little white dress.

Sunset on a carhood.
Sunnies on.
The warmth of the sun burning the hot metal.
Laughter as a cloud passes in the shape of inappropriate things.
Warmth of the heart.
Warmth of the soul.
The happiness of the simple things.

Sunday is a me day.
I need one of these to do whatever the heck I want to do.
No obligations to anyone.
Need to work out!
Currently am lying in bed listening to music on a cloudy day.
Craving... something cheesy... like quesadilla...

Ponypet!!!! Ponypettttttttt!!!!!!!!!!

There. Their. They're.
Your. You're.
Too. To.

HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW HOW TO USE THOSE PROPERLY!!!!! UGHHHHHHHHH.
Bad grammar is possibly the most irritating thing in texts.
It annoys me to an extreme, and I know it isn't just because you're too lazy to fix it.
QUOTE: 'How was you're night?'
OMFG.. ARE YOU AN IDIOT?
BRET. LEARN GRAMMAR. YOU SHOULD ALREADY KNOW THIS. I DON'T CARE IF YOU ARE A HICK AND COUNTRY BOY.

Anywho. Amanda and I went to see The Heartbroken last night at the Hideout! I want to call them a country soul band. Haha. They were absolutely amazing and the main singer's voice was just brilliant! So powerful and beautiful. I bought their CD last night and got them to autograph it so I actually got to meet them! It was wonderful.
The venue called the Hideout was also pretty cool. It was all wood inside, had comfy chairs, and felt cozy. The crowd was mixed with the majority being OLD em... older people. Haha. I would love to go again.

Server is down at work...
I will make a list of things instead:

Things I want to buy:

A vacation
Cowboy boots
Sandals
Moccasins
Earl Grey Latte
Shampoo and Conditioner
Make up


Things I want to be able to wear:

Cowboy Boots
Tights and shorts
Big billowy sweaters
Skinny flip flops if I didn't have ginormous fat feet


Things I want to learn:

More Cantonese
How to waterfall braid my hair
How to be less embarrassed by myself
How to be confident
How to get over my constant junk food craving
How to get the proper nutrition as a vegetarian


Things I dislike:

Sadness
People being hurt
Working
Cold, rainy weather for lengthy periods of time
Being a professional
Anger
Judgement, prejudice, stereotypes


Things I like:

Boys (for entertainment purposes)
Strawberries (but not the squishy sour ones)
Mangoes, blueberries, watermelon, pears, apples
Ice Cream in the summertime
Sunsets
When it is still bright out at 10 p.m. and warm
Happiness
Worry-free feeling
Being relaxed
Heart-to-hearts with people
Trees, flowers, grass, bugs, animals, nature


Places I want to go:

Hawaii
Cuba
Australia
New Zealand
Madagascar
Washington
New York
Montreal
Newfoundland
Brazil


I was going to make a people I love list, but I realize now that I love everybody. Everyone helps me everyday to be the person I want to be. Whether I hate them, or am good friends with them, I still love them, for they are a learning experience. I don't really hate people. I don't have the darkness in my heart to kick people to the curb and be an angry or mean person to them. I take it one day at a time. Everytime I wake up, I start new. Nothing that happened yesterday or in years passed, can make me be mean to a person today. My goal is to live with this mentality. Like I used to say, I don't live in the past or the future. Live in the present. No regrets and no expectations. Be always happy with what you have, for only a fool would be unhappy with that which is in his life.

Ew. Hiking boots and high socks with shorts.
Can you please put those away?
EW EW EW EW EW.

On the plus side, saw Mike from Stantec AGAIN at the barbecue just outside of work today and turns out he also goes to U of A. WHAT A COINCIDENCE!
He gave me his number in case he ends up in Calgary tomorrow at the stampede at the same time I do.
WOW. 2 new phone numbers in my phone in 2 days! Haha.
Should I be proud?
AND free cotton candy, popcorn, and snow cones at the barbecue. YUM YUM YUM.

DEAR STEVEN,

YOU ARE A DOUCHEBAG. PLEASE GO AWAY.

Long story short, stupid guy told me I looked sloppy today and my shirt 'isn't flattering.'
And then he instant messaged me saying 'Ya, that shirt has got to go.'
I feel like punching him in the face. Is this justified?

My vote... YES.

Sigh...
So when I started hanging out with Bret, I told him that I didn't want anything serious.
That I had just gotten out of a long term relationship and wanted to be single. I mean, I'm 20.
We've been hanging out for maybe a month... I didn't even meet him until a little after Vancouver.
And last night we were hanging out and he says 'Can I ask you a question? Do you still consider me to be just a fling?' So obviously I answer honestly saying 'Ya.. Pretty much...' (awkwardly of course because I know that isn't the answer he wants)
Then we're just watching TV and he's like 'I'm going to miss you when you go back to school'
My jaw would've hit the floor but I'm nice so I covered it up and said 'Dude! That's like 2 months away!' While quietly freaking out on the inside because it is so apparent that he now has decided he has feelings for me.
(I hate feelings) Anyways, so then he proceeds to say 'What if one of us (and by one of us he really means himself) decides we want to be more than just a fling?'
LIKE OMFG. WHY?!?!
'Um. We'll talk about it later when it happens...'