I've come to be extremely thankful for my co-op program.
Today I was working on a design lab for one of my classes, and everything seemed to click so easily with it.
It was design of sanitary sewers, and so I had experience in doing that at Al-terra for my first co-op terms.
Watching others struggle to do what came so easily to me really made me appreciate the awesome work experience I've had.
Sometimes it just takes time to appreciate past experiences.

Magnetic Island!!!!

Last day of November.
I cannot believe how fast time has passed. At the beginning of the month, I was exhausted and ready for the month to pass, and now that it has, I wonder where all my time has gone.
Let's reflect on what happened this month:
Water polo
Long weekend at home
Immortals!
Scuba! :) :) :)
First volunteer shifts at Ten Thousand Villages
Managed to do above average on ALL my midterms
Last weekend's drunken mess
First ever visit to On the Rocks
Realized that I was completely broke
Solidified employment at Golder

Wow. This month doesn't have that many exciting memories! How sad.
I hope that December will be wonderful!

Winter Wonderland: Jason Mraz

Water polo champs!!



















I make a good goalie!!! They only scored 3 goals with me in net, and I blocked a whole bunch of shots, including two in a row! Yay me :)
I had a bad day. Grumpy all day, but listening to Christmas music made me feel better.
David Archuleta, I love you.
Good night all. I hope you have a fantastic sleep and a great day tomorrow!

Hahahaha.
'You don't seem impressed with me so I'll text you later' - Josh
Nooooo. You don't think it would take 10 one word answers in a row to get my point across.
Although he is currently unemployed because his boss is in the hospital with cancer, I still hate it when people don't look for a job right away. If I had no income and was also not going to school, I would be bored and annoyed at my useless life.
Honestly, a guy without a job is so unattractive to me, especially after the whole Zach situation. Not having a job is a total sign of not being motivated in anything and being utterly and completely lazy.
I mean, here I am, I earned my scholarships in first year. I worked hard to get into engineering co-op so that I could pay for my own tuition and living, food, and recreational expenses. And then there are the people who don't work and mooch everything off their parents. I mean, when you're a student, you have a legit excuse. But when you don't go to school, being unemployed is not a reasonable way to live.
I work, volunteer, go to school, play intramurals, and go to choir while maintaining a social life. Don't you dare say you don't have time to work AND do other things.
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I think I've done this already... But:

If you look really close, there's a rip in the sky and you CAN see the Universe.
Stop and look at the sun. Tell me what have you done today, that left you dreaming?

I realize that the only thing stopping me from getting a tattoo is the thought that I won't be able to donate blood for half a year afterwards.
So... The question is, save 9 people's lives, or get a tattoo that doesn't really do much except remind me to take a breath, step back, and remember the beauty of life.
What do you think? I'd either get the word clarity in handwriting in white ink on my left pointer finger or I'm thinking I might get the infinite love symbol (as on the bottom of my blog layout) somewhere maybe on my left wrist.
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Sometimes Twitter makes me laugh.
This is an old one but if I were a guy and looked like Snape from Harry Potter: 'Mind if I Slytherin?'
HAHA
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Next time I wear a sleeveless shirt to class, I should probably remember to shave my armpits in the morning.
HAHAHAHA.
Today seems like it is going to be a slow and uneventful day.
I finally woke up early enough to go to class, only because I had to hand in homework that was due at 8 a.m.
So I am going to go to class for 4 and a half hours, then I have a half hour break in which I will eat a delicious sub from Subway, and then a seminar for an hour.
Afterwards, I'm gonna head to Ten Thousand Villages where I left my water bottle (hopefully it's still there), and then go home and do homework.
FINALLY! Exciting part! I get to play in the finals for water polo at 8!
I'm so excited!!! I hope we win and get free t-shirts!!! I would love one.
Then I'm going to sleep. I've found it really difficult to fall asleep lately, and I think it's been the lack of activity. I'm planning on going to the gym tomorrow morning before class. Hopefully that will help me go to sleep a little bit easier.
Have a good day ladies!

Beautiful promise ring. I love it! Faraz got it for his girlfriend for their one year anniversary and he showed me a picture.
What a darling little ring.

AI YA!!!!!!
A sound that Asians make to express empath, despair, pain, and surprise all at the same time.

HILARIOUS

Today was one of those days where everyone just makes me pissy.
Everything that everyone did just made me angry.
Josh got jealous seeming when I said I was stressed out about the Shane situation.
He said "Do you like him?" and I just sent WTF.
His reply, 'Sometimes when I like someone and don't know what to say I get stressed out".
OMG. How many times have I emphasized to him that Shane is just my friend. I will never ever ever like him like that. And I hate that he can get jealous over something stupid like that.
I remember when I told him I had a new roommate that was a guy, one of his first questions was "Oh. So have you slept with him yet?" and I said "Oh definitely. So many times." Obviously sarcastic. Funny thing is that Josh didn't actually believe the sarcasm, asking "No seriously. Have you?"
How is it possible to think I am that much of a whore or whatever and not trust me a single bit.
Seriously, he told me last week that he went out dancing with some of his buddies, and he danced with some girl the whole night because she had big tits. And then he motorboated her. I know, real mature right? But I didn't get jealous about that. It doesn't mean anything, plus I think it's hilarious (I'm also really immature).
Ugh. Trust is an integral part of any relationshit, and if that isn't part of it from the start, it probably won't develop. I have given him no reason not to trust me, so I don't know what his problem is.
But that just means he gets ignored all week and I am going to be a major biotch all week to him!
Hurray!

I've realized that choir is like my wall socket.
I'm like my laptop.
I am constantly being used and running while my power drains and drains.
Doing several things at once and keeping things open makes me drain faster, while closing the lid puts me to sleep which drains me slower.
But in the end, without my charger, I die.
Choir is my charger. It recharges me for the entire week.
Every Monday, I feel rejuvenated when I come home from choir.
And I love it.
I love the 2 hours I spend socializing with the oldies.
I love how I am becoming more interested in the behind the scenes work, especially now that I am on the promotions and advertising committee.
I love it.
I have passion for choir. I do I do I do.

Just renamed my blog and took off the security. Hopefully no one finds my blog, but if they do, at least they'll know who I truly am?
I have been absolutely exhausted this weekend.
I don't know whether it was the drinking or if it is my body just being tired.
It's been a while since I worked out, meaning Friday, but I just lack motivation to go to the gym right now. I'm overwhelmed with homework and I want to sleep.
I only have 6 more days of classes, and then a 4 day weekend followed by 5 exams in a row from the 12th to the 16th.
I CANNOT. I repeat CANNOT wait to be done exams.
This semester hasn't been all that bad, but it has been emotionally and physically draining for me, and I could not be more excited to start work and meet some new people.
I think this weekend was a good start to meeting new people.
I realize how amazing it is to learn about random people that I meet at the bar, no matter how drunk I am or how drunk they are. It's fun, and I'm young and that's what I want to do.
Australia is going to be absolutely amazing.

So I took Shane off my reading list... Or so I hope.
This is a long rant about him.
I have told my story about Friday already.
And it really bothers me that he can't get over it.
I hate that his self esteem is so low that he doesn't realize that if he really wanted to, he could meet girls or guys and date them.
And I hate how he makes me feel guilty if I don't hang out with him.
And he constantly disses Josh to me or whoever I talk about being attracted to.
Like seriously, get over it. You don't need to be jealous. Just be a friend and hold back your real opinions when they are based off nothing but your jealousy. UGH.
If I'm happy, he should be happy for me.
That's why I feel like he isn't really my friend.
I am almost to the point where I only hang out with him because I feel guilty if I don't and he is just a loner with nothing to do.
So I hang out with him so that he will at least have one friend.

Rachelle is also to that point, and we're starting to have our doubts about having invited him to Australia with us. If we go to Australia, and he still gets jealous about me hanging out with other guys and talking to randoms, then it's going to make my trip unenjoyable.
Also, Shane tried coke over the summer, and now he always brags about it and talks about doing drugs as if it is cool.
He brags about it to EVERYONE. And that's what Rachelle really hates. He talks about it to everyone, even people that he barely knows.
We were out having drinks with our scuba instructors on Friday night, and Thane, our old man instructor was saying keep the drugs until you're old so people can't tell if you're just suffering from dementia or actually high. Like doing coke, blah blah blah, and Shane was like, It's fun to do coke when you're young too! Ugh. Who does that. You should not be proud of the fact that you've done coke. It is not something to be proud of. AT ALL.

Another thing that bothers me is that he thinks it is okay to be depressing all the time. The reason he says he hates himself is so that other people will comfort him and compliment. Fishing for compliments is not something you should do on a regular basis. NEVER EVER. Maybe on a real down day where you feel bad about everything and need someone to lift your spirits, but he brings up his unattractiveness up ALL THE TIME. Just so I have to deal with it. There's only so many times I can say, No Shane, you're not ugly, before I start just ignoring it and don't offer a compliment in return. But being the nice person I am, I try to still compliment him because if I don't, it suddenly gets worse, because then he goes (inside his head) OMG, she didn't try to make me feel better, I must actually be ugly. BLAH BLAH BLAH.

Blegh. I'm glad I'm going to work in January. We won't see each other as much and that will be really nice. The only times we will hang out will be when I want to hang out, which is perfect! JANUARYYYYYY.

Guess who knows this guy?! Me :)

When Tonya texts me and tells me she doesn't know how to do her 374 homework, is she really expecting me to care?
On Friday, she tried to convince me to do our 331 design lab, and I said, Dude, it's Friday.
She responded by saying "You're Asian. What else are you going to do on a Friday night?"
She pisses me off in so many ways.
Oh my goodness.

GREY CUP 2011!
I was going to do all my homework tonight but considering my brain is only about 1/4 on, I'm going to do it tomorrow night and hope that I have time to finish it.
So instead, I'm going to watch the grey cup :)
Went to Royal Bison Craft Fair with Rachelle and then grabbed coffee right afterwards.

Here is a wishlist for things I would love if I had money to spend and my own home.



















2 person rocking chair.
















Cute guy and a vacation to the mountains.















Wood spiral staircase.

Drunken night number 2 was not a success.
Left the drinking party by 10:30 p.m.
Haha.
Maybe I will be able to do something productive today?
Probably not, considering I just woke up about a half hour ago. OOPS.

Drinking night #2 will begin in a few minutes.
It's going to be a fun one...

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE old people.
I was walking across Whyte Ave at a crosswalk, and a guy in a truck almost ran me over along with 2 old men walking across the street as well.
So I said, "WE ALMOST GOT RUN OVER :O!!"
And the old man was like, YA!
So I was like, How are you guys doing?
And they said, good, how are you?
I said, GOOD! Are you two heading out to dinner?
And the one man said, "We sure are!"
So I said, have a good night! since by then we were done walking across the street.
And the one man said, "I hope we see you again. I NEED A GIRLFRIEND!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

This hangover is horrendous. Please please please make it go away.
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We are the champions my friendsssssssssssssss!!!!!
Water polo team was victorious last night! That means we play in the finals on Tuesday.
What really tops it off is that I found out our team is called Dumbledore's Army. Haha. We are the nerdiest of the water polo teams. But I love it.
I also scored my first goal last night.
They made me play goalie for the second half, and there was this crazy good girl on the other team that made me shake from fear when she was close to my net with the ball, but we had a one on one showdown, and I stuffed the ball. IN HER FACE. Hahahaha. It was awesome.
Went in the sauna after the game. Uuhhhh. SoOooo nice. Walked home with Autumn.
Took a shower, skyped Josh, and watched Shameless while drinking tea and snacking.
Yesterday was a fantastic day. So amazingly good and I don't really even know why. Nothing THAT special happened, but I was feeling good allll day.
I hope the weekend is just as awesome :)
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WHY does this make me laugh so much?

Today was quite possibly the perfect day.
I slept in by accident so I couldn't feel guilty about not going to class.
And I only went to my tutorial. Then I got to cook.
I didn't realize how much cooking takes my mind off things.
I think it's going to be awesome when I start working in January.
No need to think about things when I get home from work, soooo I can just cook new recipes all the time :)

LOVE

HERE IS MY VEGGIE MEATLOAF!
I ate it with Rachelle who brought Shake and Bake and we made breaded zucchini to go with the meatloaf! I also made a veggie gravy from scratch to throw on top of the meatloaf. SO GOOD!

Emily Fung is coming to my home for Christmas day!
She has no family here to spend it with, so I thought, Gosh it would be so lonely to be here all by your lonesome on a holiday, and I invited her over!
So now she will get to enjoy our delicious feast and meet the family :)
Good thing she speaks cantonese!

Making vegetarian meatloaf and gravy!!!
YUM YUM YUM.
Gravy is done and meatloaf is in the oven. I'm soooo excited.

I completely have faith in the idea that someone is going to come and completely sweep me off my feet one day.

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Goddammittttttt.
So I sent Josh a text saying "I can't do this anymore".
And he sent "Do what anymore?"
And then he called me.
And there began a phone conversation that made me go from SO DONE to OH MY GOSH WHAT A SWEETIE.
Phone conversation was a 100% turnaround from texting conversation. He was so easy to talk to and admitted that he is horrible about texting. I told him I didn't like the fact that he doesn't ever ask me about how my day was and how he doesn't ask me about my life. And basically told him all the reasons why I didn't feel like this relationshit was going anywhere.
And he gave me an out. An easy out. Saying all I have to say is I'm done, and we're done. But I couldn't do it.
There's this feeling inside of me that feels like this is different somehow. I mean, as much as I say I don't like him, I do. And I know it's really stupid, but for some reason, I feel like there's something special between us. There's a reason we randomly ran into each other at a restaurant I NEVER go to the day after the music festival.
And there's something that just feels right when we talk or hang out. It just feels normal. Like two puzzle pieces that fit together.
I think the whole thing about this before today was that I was scared to let my heart get the best of me like it did before.
But I'm smarter now. I've confronted him about what I find wrong about how we interact if we're 'together' and that's not something I would have done two years ago.
I don't care if I'm demanding too much. I deserve to be a treated like a princess. Haha. I sure say that a lot.
I know what you're thinking. The usual "Oh Sarah..." but I'm going to give this a week or two and see how it goes. We agreed to do skype conversations. So I'm going to play it by ear.
I'm not getting my hopes up, but the fact that he is willing to try so hard to make this thing work really tugs on my heart strings. I want this to work, but I need to keep things realistic and realize that although he is telling me what I want to hear, things aren't going to keep going if he doesn't follow through.

Life is a fragile thing.
In order to truly capture the moments of it, we must take care of ourselves.
We must understand the gifts that we were given.
We must understand the moments that are presented to us.
And we must ensure that we take care of the people, objects, that surround us.

I was watching a show called DISconnected on MTV tonight.
A show about a bunch of high school kids who keep in touch with each other over live video cam.
A boy killed himself while everyone watched.
Not a single person decided to rush to his home, or call the cops, or comfort him into not doing it.
They sat on the sidelines as an innocent depressed boy killed himself.
What has society come to that this is an acceptable way to deal with a troubled child?
And why did they think it was funny?

It's times like these that I'm reminded of how lucky I am.
I am not depressed. I know I have a support group of friends and family that will help me get through hard times.
And it's moments like these that remind me of how short life can be.
How with a snap of my fingers, the end of my life could be here.
And how I need to take advantage of what I have.
But then at the same time, what is life really about?
Is it about doing as much as we can, accomplishing as much as we can in such a short time?
What were we put on Earth to do? Or is there even a purpose of us being here?
I choose to believe that we are here to explore the world and to appreciate its beauty.
So starting right now, I'm going to give myself opportunities.
I'm going to hang out with some friends that I haven't made an effort to see in a while.
I'm going to try to make new friends.
And I'm going to embrace all that I can in life.

Dream Guy Quality List:
Smart
Funny
Quirky
Wears Glasses(with thick frames) but looks good without them
Enjoys working out
Muscular
Enjoys dressing up nicely
Likes to go for walks
Spontaneous
Musical
Calm
Outgoing enough but also independent
Cares about my feelings and listens to me when I talk about my day and my problems
Confident in himself and trusting of me
Believes in me
Motivated to excel at his work
Compassionate about the well being of others
Dedicated to his passions
Willing to do what it takes to reach his goals

Watched Immortals today.
It was pretty good in my opinion, but Shane and Joel had real issues with it.
Ie. They totally over thought the whole movie.
Like "why did they live on the edge of a cliff?" And "why did they search for the oracle if they weren't even going to use her?"
Silly boys. Movies are meant to be enjoyed and with a large grain of salt.

Also today, had lunch with Abhishek. It was fun, but we didn't have that much to talk about.
Also went for drinks at Filthy McNasty's with Joel and Shane. It was nice.

Too much of life is wasted on thinking about what we COULD be doing.
Why isn't it that we just do it?

Watching MTV's I Used to Be Fat
While eating pie.... hmmmmm....

I slept in until noon today, and I don't think I've done that in years now.
It felt so good to just lie in bed. No worries, nothing to do, and not much missed from me sleeping in.
I want a personal trainer.
I want to do zumba!
I also want to cook a lot of different things, but I am too broke to afford it.

I am going to Immortals tomorrow night! I'm so excited! The movie doesn't look like it has that great of a plot, but the special effects are going to be killer!

The sauna at the gym is rarely used by people it seems, maybe because it's hidden away from everything else! It is a secret that only cool people get to know about.

I think my goal for when I start working in January is to be friends with as many people from work as I can be. I don't really know how many people my age I'll get to hang out with while at work, but if anybody is cool, I am totally going to make some friends!
I saw a few people I knew at the gym today, but the thing with me these days is that I've felt really antisocial. I didn't want to say hi to any of them.
But there's a guy in my classes that was there, and I can't remember his name at all. But he is quiet and shy seeming and I've never really talked to him but his friend always talks to me. I want to ask him out for coffee because for some reason, I feel some sort of connection with him? Haha. That sounds like some stupid TV show type of thing. But I think it might be because I feel that he is similar to me in that he is quiet in class, hangs out by himself, and has a few good friends that he sticks by. I think he would be a lot more mature than some other guys I've met and that he would be open-minded in a quiet way.
Experiment: Go talk to him, get to know him, and see if my judgment of him based on observation is correct.

Just gotta work up the nerves to do it :)

I really like broccoli and green beans.
I also enjoy tofu.
And smoothies.
I worked out after my tutorial today and climbed on Jacobs ladder. Such a cool machine!
Then I rowed and pumped some iron.
After discovering the sauna in the change rooms at Van Vliet, I have been obsessed with it!
So I went to the sauna after my workout!
Then I walked to Safeway, picked up some groceries, walked home, an made myself a smoothie and some veggies and tofu!
DELICIOUS.

Now I'm going to watch 90210 and then do homework until I'm done my assignments, then sleep!!!!

I want to make the meatloaf!

http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2011/11/17/hearty-holiday-main-courses-for-vegans/?src=tp

Dear world,

Could I please have an identical twin with an amazing rich family to switch places with?
I'm sure she would love to be student and snuggle with Quatchi?

Imagine you wake up one morning and there's a beautiful chandelier above your head.
The sheets are 700 thread count Egyptian cotton.
You get out of bed wearing your real silk pajamas.
Open the door to your closet and walk into a giant room full of designer clothes, bags, shoes, jewelry.
You get dressed, and walk downstairs to breakfast already made by your professional cook.
You see the pure hardwood floor, the spiral staircase, the dark granite counter tops and the 72 inch plasma.
The pool looks clear blue in the sunlight as you see it through the walls made of glass.
And then there's a note on the table.
"Hi love, I had to work early. Here's some cash for the day." Attached is 200 dollars.
You go to school and see your friends.
First questions they ask "Did you see your dad today? He's been working a lot lately hasn't he?"
Truth is, you haven't seen your mom or dad for weeks now.
They've been working non-stop.
They haven't called, you haven't had a real family meal in months, and they haven't even met your boyfriend that you've been seeing for weeks.
All you have is your car, your clothes, your money, your friends. Family has never been a part of your life.
Is it possible to be truly happy in this scenario?

Need:
Cute puppy to play and snuggle with.

Desire:
hot guy to make out with

PLEASEEEEEE

Biggest pet peeve:

When you ask someone how they were, or how their weekend was, etc. (that type of question) and they answer you with something like "Good, it was a fun weekend" but they don't ask you the question back. CONVERSATION KILLER. Haha.

Friends OFF.

Why is it that men and women continue to hurt themselves in relationships?
I mean, say a girl's boyfriend cheats on her, and takes him back.
Is it really okay to trust him again when he says, oh! I won't do it again. I'm sorry. Blah blah blah.
Isn't that the same as when a child steals and gets caught by his/her parent and makes sure that next time, he is more careful about it?
I just read about Jesse James cheating on Kat von D.
Is it really true that cheaters will always be cheaters?
Or is it possible that people can control their animalistic behaviors and be monogamist?
I honestly don't know what to think. I've been there. I've cheated on my boyfriend. More than once.
And I'd like to think that I can be faithful to my significant other next time I have a committed relationship, but I also have come to accept the fact that I will always have crushes on other guys when I have a boyfriend.
It's just what comes naturally to me. I look at cute boys all the time, no matter what, and I flirt with them, no matter what. It's part of who I am. So is it part of life to learn to control these instincts and stay committed even if it takes all the will power I have? I don't even know.
Life is a one time deal. Carpe diem they say, so does seizing the day mean having that one night stand even though you have a significant other, or does it mean staying committed to let the first relationship flourish?
Is it really possible to go through life without cheating on your partner? I mean, what people classify as cheating goes from kissing, emotional cheating, sexing someone else, or even just texting someone else. It seems silly to me to think that everyone is able to love only that one person forever.
Is that the reason that 50% or more of marriages end in divorce now? It has become socially acceptable to divorce your spouse, when back in the day, divorce rate was minimal and divorce was taboo. Now that it's more socially acceptable, people aren't sticking through horrible marriages just so that they stay married? Or is it actually that people are getting married before they're ready or before they have a chance to find the 'love of their life'.
I've become one of those people who say that marriage is just a piece of paper. I feel like every relationship comes to an end. People change and interests change, and I think it's part of life to move on and explore something different.
As much as I want to believe that I'll die together with my future husband, I don't really think that's going to happen.
I've become a cynic, but what that really means to me is that I've come to accept reality.
Optimism still surrounds my thoughts, but lurking behind is the idea that not all positive things are reality. You can't go from an abusive relationship to a picture perfect couple. It just isn't going to happen, but the optimism is knowing that once that relationship ends, maybe both ends can heal, separately.
Relationships are crazy things. People give up so much of themselves to be in them sometimes, and devote their hearts to people who will never change if they never get caught. Why is it that girls think their boyfriends will suddenly stop partying so much and stay in and watch chick flicks with them. Or boyfriends who think their girlfriend will suddenly stop flirting with her guy friends? It's a game of torture that I see couples go through all the time.
Why is it that we torture ourselves when there are billions of other desirable mates out there? Is it that we believe the best in others? Or is it the comfort of being in that despair? To know that on Saturday night when he was supposed to come over for dinner and a movie, he skipped out, never texted you, and ended up getting drunk and 'sleeping over' at a girl's house? Or to know that she was just 'hanging out' at her friend's house and didn't have time to text you... ALL NIGHT.
It's that gut feeling that's there. People know when they're being cheated on. Sometimes friends tell that girl/guy that they're being cheated on, yet they choose not to believe it, when deep down, they know it's true. Why do we do that to ourselves?
It seems silly, but maybe it's just the cynic in me.
I want to believe in relationships and monogamy and happiness from those, but I can't. It just isn't a person to be faithful. We cheat for the thrill, we cheat for the fun, we cheat so that we can experience something new. After all, isn't that what life's about?

I've come to realize that most of my life is spent in my bed.
I am a very sedentary being, with about an hour of activity in my life each day.
No wonder I am a fatty! Hehe!
I should start being on my feet more often!

I have officially been hit by SAD.
Boo Winter and how it makes me feel depressed even though I am happyyyyy.
My thoughts when I woke up this morning in the dark and cold were:
Today sucks already.
I don't ever want to do anything.

Totally not normal.
I wonder if I should take some vitamins so I can get myself back to normal!

My new winter boootsssssss.

I look like I'm ready for winter! I'm a child in my cutesy new snowboots!

And the sky train is so beautifullll.

The Tracks from Jordan Ettinger on Vimeo.

INNERTUBE WATER POLO IS SOOOO MUCH FUN!
I love itttttt.
Giant American Apparel Warehouse Sale tomorrow :) I can't wait to go!

Take every achievement as a momentous occasion. No matter how small.
If we can't celebrate the small victories, we will never feel proud of ourselves.
It's times like these where we need to appreciate how far we've come.
Whether it be talking to that cute boy that you needed to work up to the courage over the last month to talk to.
Or running that extra 200 meters that you couldn't last week.
Or waking up early to do push-ups when all you wanted to press snooze again and sleep.
Look at how much progress you've made.
Don't worry about how far you still have to go.
Because if you keep trying, it won't be so far anymore.

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

Ran 7k and did stairs for an hour and 15 minutes today. That also included stretching and abs.
:)
It felt so good!
But now I'm exhausted.
Sleep sleep sleep :)

There is a show called The League which I thoroughly enjoy.
They say only hot girls drive Jetta's.
Amanda, you better get a Jetta... STAT!

http://www.megavideo.com/?v=F0TGDC4N

LOL LOL LOL

Click on this and then try to look at the color black for the shirt.

No choir tonight :(
I will have to do my homework instead... BOOOOOO

Dear girl in NREF,

Why are you wearing lulu lemon tights with heeled boots. Why? Why? Why?
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Sylvan Lake is beautiful.
I want to live there for a while. It'd be nice to live in a quiet little place for a little bit and isolate myself from the world.

On the topic of Christmas, I've been thinking about getting some really nice headphones that go around my ears and cancel out noise.
I don't know how the heck to look for headphones, but here are some that look pretty cool.

I LOVE MY LIFE

I just plugged in my Christmas lights.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE HOLIDAYS.
I love seeing Santa in the mall.
And people wearing ugly Christmas sweaters.
And being happy while freezing their bums off Christmas shopping.
And families getting together to celebrate.
People taking time out of their busy lives to appreciate their loved ones.

Everything about Christmas makes me happy.

Taking a breather from life.
I will be missing from phone and facebook and all social networking for the next little while.
My blog is like a journal so I will be continuing to blog.

Seeing Josh really clarified things for me. I have no interest in him at all.
Too bad I didn't tell him that. Confrontation is not a skill of mine.

I love Waves in Sylvan Lake.
I love home and my bed at home.
I love my parents and sisters :)

I told mother and father about Australia and they surprisingly barely cared. In fact, papa was excited that I was going because I could go see his cousins and relatives there!

Winter always makes me feel the same way.
It makes me desire the warmth and comfort of another person beside me.
It makes me desire holding hands with someone as I walk down the snowy sidewalk.
It makes me want to sit by a fireplace with a warm mug of tea and smile.
It makes me miss my childhood.

The Help was an amazing feel good movie.
Right now, I feel so blessed that the world has come to a place where we have come to accept different races. Well at least more so than we used to.
I cried during that movie. I love crying during movies.
The emotion I felt wasn't sadness, or just happiness, it was more one of pride.
Pride for the people in history and in current times that have the courage to stand up against the majority and strive for a change in the status quo.
I want to be one of those people.
I want to be able to stand up for what I believe in. And to have the courage to do something to help the greater population even if it means putting myself in danger or risking my reputation.
It's amazing the difference that one person can make.

So I went out tonight completely sober the whole time with Tabitha who only had one drink.
We went to Billy Bobs and made fun of people for an hour and a half.
It was a blast.
Then we got hit on by guys who tried to invite us to their 'after party' which really means us and them and them trying to get us drunk enough to sleep with them. Blech.
Here's how the convo went:

Them: Hey! Why aren't you guys dancing?
Me: We're making fun of hillbillies!
Them: What's your name?
Me: Keela!
Them: Who's your friend?
Me: Daisy! (Haha. I couldn't think of any other fake names...)
They try to shake Tabitha's hand.
Me: Oh my gosh! You guys know Howie Mandel? She's a total germaphobe like him!
Them: Oh.
So they air shake her hand.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. Then the one guy Brad tried to get my number but I got his instead and then they left.
OMG. Red Deer boys never fail to make me laugh my arse off.

Going out with super self-conscious girls is so not my thing.
Tabitha took 45 minutes choosing a shirt to wear with her skirt.
Then we went to Bellini's and we left after 10 minutes so that she could change because she felt too fancy in her skirt. And like a teacher...
Dude. Just be confident in what you're wearing and work it.
Now she's inside her condo trying on things to wear instead while I'm sitting outside waiting for her to come back out so we can go back to Bellini's... Omg.
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There is just something so soothing about sitting on the greyhound, headphones in, and the dark surrounding me.
It's like all of a sudden, I'm leaving my life. Nothing matters in Edmonton anymore. And when I reach my destination, I have a brand new life.
I feel so calm. So happy to have a break. Sometimes we just need a break from routine.
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This blog post is extremely inappropriate. You may choose not to read it.

I just got ass raped by an elephant penis. On my exam.
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bon iver - skinny love

Utterly obsessed with this song.

In one year, will this really have mattered?

Life is like a Roller Coaster













When you look at it from outside, you see a variety of twist and turns, complicated structures, frameworks, ups and downs.
So you think it looks exhilarating and you decide to hop on.
Alongside you, you see people that are ready to ride with you. People who are only tagging along because their friends told them to. People who are happy to ride alone. People who desperately try to convince their friend to go on because they don't want to be alone. And people surrounded by friends. Which person are you?
And then the ride begins. Up up up you go. To the very top. As you wait in anticipation for the moments that will come later. Anxious and excited you become as you near the top.
Then suddenly, the drop comes, the spins, the loops, the unexpected jerks to the side, and the pleasure of the unexpected. The anticipation of the next surprise. And the pain of the things you dreaded to begin with.
Then as suddenly as it began, you come to a halt.
Was this ride everything you had thought it would be?

So the midterm I thought I did awful on last week turned out to be not so awful.
I got 38/40 on it somehow.
The markers are awfully nice :)
YAY!

I don't know what to do with myself! I had all day off, and I realized my midterm tomorrow is probably going to be super easy, so I already finished studying for it.
What the heck do I do with my free time now?!?!

I think I'll go buy crackers and then lay in bed.
:)

So life has been pretty ridiculously hectic.
This week, I had a giant midterm worth 40% of my mark. I also have another midterm tomorrow. I think it's worth 25% of my mark?
Also had 4 assignments due and 2 labs due. One which I thought was due on Thursday but was actually due on Tuesday, so I mad scrambled to get it done on Tuesday. And I got it done!

The funny part about being so busy was that I loved it. I loved not having the time to check my phone every 2 seconds to text someone back, or to sit around doing nothing. I stayed up until 4 in the morning on Saturday doing homework, and it was so much fun! Rachelle and I had a homework party and we watched scary movies and other movies while we did our homework. At 3 a.m. we stole a pumpkin from her neighbors front porch and re-carved it (into inappropriate objects of course).
I think the part of being busy so much is how I feel like I'm not wasting any of my life. I mean, I love relaxing on a day off in bed, but there are so many things I could be doing rather than lying in my bed watching Happy Endings and Community. Haha. That's what I did all afternoon today, and I honestly feel more stressed out than if I had to do 4 homework assignments today. I think being busy gives me a sense of accomplishment. I'm spending every waking moment of my life doing something productive. To me, it's fun. Trying to keep up with the hectic nature of it all.

I am getting more and more excited to go home for Remembrance Day! No school on Thursday or Friday, so I am going to go home by bus on Wednesday night. Plans for Wednesday night? BAKE COOKIES! I am going to visit my home skillets at AB Environment on Thursday and hand out cookies :) It should be fun. Then Friday, I think I am just going to wander around Red Deer, which probably includes a trip to the mall, a visit to other shopping places, probably a visit to Ten Thousand Villages to say hi to Leslie, and then maybe I'll wander to Bower Ponds! I don't even know what to do with my time off, but I'll try to make the most of it!

I CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME!!!!! :D

Goals for November!

No Chips (that includes popcorn)
Work out at least 3 times a week
Eat at least 4 fruit and veggie servings a day.
Make sure to eat protein.
Make one person smile a day.
Try something new and different at least once.
Write one motivational sticky note to myself a day.

I can't believe that it's November already! Holy crap! Where did October go??
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